The First Draft Blues

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WAH WAH, wah wah. 

I wrote myself a novel,

I made myself a book. 

Four months and seventeen days,

is how long it took. 

I slaved in the mornings, 

I beat my brow at night.

When the manuscript was finished,

I thought it turned out alright. 

But then I read the first chapter,

I don’t know what to do. 

It’s the worst thing I’ve ever read,

I’VE GOT THE FIRST DRAFT BLUES!!!!

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First drafts can really suck. When you finish the months long marathon you’ve been running, maintaining the same emotions and themes and thought process the whole time in order to write cohesively and concisely, you have this brief moment of accomplishment to enjoy. 

Emphasis on brief

Because the second you turn around and read the first chapter, you remember why it’s called a first draft. A rough draft. And let me tell you, they’re always rough. They get less rough as you complete more literary marathons, but each and every one requires a lot of editing. 

The draft I just finished? So much editing. All the editing. And what bums me out the most, what really hits me with the first draft blues, is that I take my time when penning everything down so that my first draft is already somewhat edited and reformed. I’ve already gone from timelines, notes, and rough drafts written by hand to finally typing it up. And it’s still a discombobulated mess. 

But…

Every few pages…

Every couple of paragraphs…

I read something that makes me know the editing is worth it. I read a sentence that is gold. I get to a scene that is played out perfectly. I find a description of something that’s clever and makes me laugh. Which is good! There are parts of the story that I like, hidden in the tangled mess of words that came from me vomiting up my ideas onto paper. That’s good! That gives me encouragement to work and edit the darn thing, because I know it’s worth it. Because if I can get the whole to match the quality of the best individual parts, then I’ve got a pretty damn good book. 

And yet…

WAH WAH, wah wah.

I made it past the first chapter,

and on to chapter two.

It’s so much worse than the first one,

I’VE GOT THE FIRST DRAFT BLUES, YEAH!!

 

I’m Back

For all of you out there wondering where the lack of content has been, fret no longer. I’m back. 

The past few months have been an overwhelming experience for me and I simply didn’t have the time, energy, or state of mind to write. I’ve been battling some serious health issues, that remain unresolved at the moment, and felt that it was far more important to focus on just getting through the sickness and spending time with those I care for the most. Though I feel I have recovered enough to start making my way back towards the passion I yearn for, I still have an arduous journey ahead of me.  Continue reading “I’m Back”

Coming at you!

Hey hey! Have I got some cool stuff to tell you. Pull up a chair and get comfy for there is some really great stuff happening that I’d love for you to read about.

I have been busy with my novel the past few days. I’m so close to the end I can actually see it. Literally, I can see the very last sentence of the epilogue and actually already have it written out. Since I’ve been writing the final climax and have been super excited about it, I’ve been writing WAY more than usual each day. I keep thinking to myself, I’m so close, if I keep writing I might actually get to finish it today. But then four hours of writing later, I’m still not there. CLOSER, but still not there. I’M SO CLOSE IT’S KILLING ME. 

My original plan was to have this novel presentable by the time I head to a writing conference next weekend. But after continuous health issues and, well, life getting in the way, I don’t think I’ll be able to pull that off. I should be able to finish the draft at least(I pray), and instead will focus on making the first few chapters as clean and enticing as possible to hand out. Should anyone be interested at the con, they’ll at least get a really well thought out and edited first few chapters. The book is called Initiation and is part of a series I plan to entitle The Black Beetles. I can’t wait to tell you about this story, and as soon as I finish the draft I’ll be writing out the synopsis in a post. I FREAKING LOVE THIS STORY. It’s why I’m writing. It’s so good and it’s only the first book!

NEXT

Twitter is a strange place. But it can afford some chance encounters that never would have happened otherwise. I was lucky enough to meet two bloggers through twitter who have graciously reviewed my book and written a full post about it on their sites. HOW COOL IS THAT?!? They are kind and honest people as well. Cynthia Austin highlighted every positive and every negative thing about my book, and Hollie wrote out a review for her boyfriend’s blog that is far more flattering than I deserve. I encourage you to check out each of them and take a look at the sites. Cynthia regularly reviews book at her site betweendreamsiread.weebly.com and Devin is a humorous guy that shares a lot of the same likes as me at rimegiant.com. Cynthia is here, while Devin wrote about me here.

I’m heading to SF:SE next weekend, and I cannot contain my excitement. A weekend by myself, in Orlando, nice hotel, three days of mingling with writers, editors, agents and publishers, and tons of panels to improve writing craft. There’s going to be some big names in writing there, as well, and I’m really looking forward to meeting some interesting people.

IN OTHER NEWS, Nonlocal Science Fiction launched their magazine today with my story featured in it! Huzzah! Hooray! Hoorah! Should anyone like a copy of it for themselves, please let me know I’ll see what I can do. If you’d like to check it out, it’s only 2.99 on amazon here and it’s good.

Well, that’s about all I’ve got off the top of my head to talk about. I would really appreciate it if you could sign up for my mailing list via the subscribe button higher up on the page. It’s nothing special, just that you’ll get notified whenever I post something on here, which as you can probably see isn’t often. But it’ll help me reach out to you and its a good way for us to stay in contact. Speaking of, I’d love to hear from you about what you think of my writing or where I’m going in general. I enjoy the feedback 🙂

Anywho, I’ll talk to you all next time. PEACE!