Ahem. Cue harmonica music.
WAH WAH, wah wah.
I wrote myself a novel,
I made myself a book.
Four months and seventeen days,
is how long it took.
I slaved in the mornings,
I beat my brow at night.
When the manuscript was finished,
I thought it turned out alright.
But then I read the first chapter,
I don’t know what to do.
It’s the worst thing I’ve ever read,
I’VE GOT THE FIRST DRAFT BLUES!!!!
First drafts can really suck. When you finish the months long marathon you’ve been running, maintaining the same emotions and themes and thought process the whole time in order to write cohesively and concisely, you have this brief moment of accomplishment to enjoy.
Emphasis on brief.
Because the second you turn around and read the first chapter, you remember why it’s called a first draft. A rough draft. And let me tell you, they’re always rough. They get less rough as you complete more literary marathons, but each and every one requires a lot of editing.
The draft I just finished? So much editing. All the editing. And what bums me out the most, what really hits me with the first draft blues, is that I take my time when penning everything down so that my first draft is already somewhat edited and reformed. I’ve already gone from timelines, notes, and rough drafts written by hand to finally typing it up. And it’s still a discombobulated mess.
Every few pages…
Every couple of paragraphs…
I read something that makes me know the editing is worth it. I read a sentence that is gold. I get to a scene that is played out perfectly. I find a description of something that’s clever and makes me laugh. Which is good! There are parts of the story that I like, hidden in the tangled mess of words that came from me vomiting up my ideas onto paper. That’s good! That gives me encouragement to work and edit the darn thing, because I know it’s worth it. Because if I can get the whole to match the quality of the best individual parts, then I’ve got a pretty damn good book.
WAH WAH, wah wah.
I made it past the first chapter,
and on to chapter two.
It’s so much worse than the first one,
I’VE GOT THE FIRST DRAFT BLUES, YEAH!!